Of a Messy Room and Guys

You definitely can tell that life is just a tad bit stressful now by the looks of my room. Its basically an open secret, my room generally becomes a humongous mess once I’ve got an assignment due or its nearing exams. Here’s a peek into the kingdom of mess It’s not everytime you get to see a girl’s room, so there you go.

The neater part of the room

The not so neat part of the room

The worst part of the room

I must say I do feel paiseh that my room is in that condition, but with me and studying and rushing assignments, things will always be that way. No matter how neat I try to keep it at the beginning of semester.

Currently my room is not so crammed because I’m using the laptop in the living room which I cannot afford to mess up due to the fact that everybody walks past that area and there is no door to hide the mess

I had a tummy ache from eating too much junk yesterday and M&Ms today. I’m such an emotional eater and when I’m stressed I eat a lot too. Looks like the weight I’ve lost during the Easter Break is slowly but surely coming back on again

While showering, I was having a thought: I’ve conceded that there is no such thing as a perfect guy in the world. Each person comes with their flaws and that is the essence of a person. No human being is perfect by any standards. Thinking about the movie Becoming Jane and how her love life was dogged with lots of drama and how the situation twists and turns in so many ways which frustrates us. I’ve conceded that I will never find a guy who is so-called perfect, but whoever I date will definitely have to meet some important criteria. Criteria that is very dear to my heart, but preferably not mentioned here just in case anybody is reading this

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately, about guys, God and a whole heap of other things. I look around me and see how the world has turned into one which is complacent and accepts all things immoral without a question in their mind. I see people around me who don’t know about God and I see how they lead their lives and thank God that I’ve found Him and accepted Jesus as my Lord and saviour. I don’t put myself on a pedestal as being better as non-believers, but more like I see myself in a better place personally. I can honestly say that I’ve changed for the better since getting to know God a little bit better, and as I take the journey of learning about Him each and every day.

I ask myself sometimes how come I never did listen to God’s promptings before. I don’t know why and doubt I’ll ever understand why I was so hard hearted in the past. I feel that I’ve changed now, especially this year. After going to New Life City Church (NLCC) this year, somehow the hunger and thirst to know God emerged and I have been wanting to know God more each day now. I have always accepted that Jesus died on the cross for my sins, but somewhere in my heart I have not experienced such thirst before. And I blogged about a month ago how I experienced this overwhelming sense of joy during worship one Sunday morning, it really struck me there was nobody who could stir my heart like that but God and He has answered my prayers about wanting to know Him more. I won’t go into detail but the least I can say is that God is great and will always be great.

It certainly has been a long day today. Ange, Lam, Lin and I went off to the UWA Med library to get some books out for our rehab assignment after having an 8am lecture all the way at Curtin today. And I got quite a bit of work done today, which makes me feel a little better. I suppose it has been a productive day with research done for my OT 402, OT 403 and OT 305 assignments. All I have to do now is to get thru oh, I don’t know, 200 pages of research for my assignments and another 500 pages of readings for classes. Not to mention I’ve gotta work 10 hours this weekend. And people wonder how come I’ve got no time to hang out and I am acting like an anti-social person. Well, paying $21k per year for uni fees is no joke.

I better be off for now. Too much thinking for the night and I’ve got a tummy ache from eating too many M&Ms. Another sign that I’m stressed.