Procrastination 101

I must admit, I’m a really bad student when it comes to writing assignments. I always end up leaving it right up till the last minute & then stressing out while writing the bloody paper. Today’s assignment is no different in this arena.

 

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I’ve got an assignment to write on the topic of empowerment, how staff can be empowered in an information service workplace and if empowerment can be a useful HR tool. Truth be told, it probably is a very exciting topic in itself. I just don’t like writing papers on topics like theses & then have to find at least 8 scholarly articles to base my arguments upon. Abstract concepts like this doesn’t sit well with my style of analytical writing or brain. Somehow I just find it very difficult to put pen to paper (so to speak) when trying to explain and argue an abstract point.

 

As such, my procrastination plan today was:

  1. Nap
  2. Write some words
  3. Watch TV
  4. Write some more words
  5. Rinse and repeat till midnight when my essay is due

 

So far, I’ve fiddled with my computer updating it to Windows 8.1 and tried to fix a glitch where my computer has refused to let me play Minecraft: Attack of the B Team due to something with Java, my graphics card and something called a DPC_WATCHDOG_VIOLATION. Updating everything didn’t even make the damn thing work. Anyway, I digress.

 

I’m 123 words into my 2000 (+/- 10%) word essay. I’ve got about 7 hours left. I suppose it is about time to actually get started properly…

Blogging Fodder

As the title suggests, I always have trouble with what I blog & if I blog at all. I constantly struggle with the balance of how much about my life I should publish online versus I want to document my life and the happenings so that when I grow old, I can flip through my blog and have a glimpse of what I was at that particular age. At uni, I thought I’d have more time to blog when I finished uni as I was always either caught up with assignments or desperately trying to finish up my assignments or maintaining my sanity while working. After I graduated, I thought I’d have time to blog as I didn’t have to chase down uni deadlines and be bogged down by how much I have to work to be able to survive. That’s didn’t really change, work took over & became the be all & end all of things. It was as if I didn’t know how to do anything apart from study or work.

 

5 years post uni and unemployed, you’d think I’d have more time or mojo to blog, but somehow that hasn’t happened. I was always caught up in the notion that there is always a perfect time later down the track to get things down. Eg: I’ll blog after uni as I’d have more time to dedicate to it. Or I’ll wait till such and such month to do something as the weather or whatever variable is perfect for it. It has taken a long time to eventually learn that there are no perfect times to do things. Like the cliched saying goes, time and tide waits for no man. There really isn’t a perfect time to do things, you make the best of the situation you are in and you grab a hold of your dreams tight and get down to it.

 

Not working has certainly made me mull in my thoughts a bit more and that isn’t always the best thing when you have an imagination as active as mine. I’ve been putting in applications for jobs and just waiting to hear back from things, but the waiting around is driving me up the wall. There is only so many TV shows that I can watch, only so many blogs I can read and only so many times I can go on Facebook before I go bonkers. Thankfully I’ve still got uni, which is keeping me busy enough to focus on the bigger picture and what I want to achieve in life. Although, I still complain about assignments and procrastinate to some level :P

 

I am hoping to find some semblance to how much of my life I share online & how much I keep to myself. I don’t think that struggle with ever go away, but as long as I have a say in what I put out & sway more to the conservative side of things, I think I’ll be just fine :)

Revamped Again

This is getting a bit old with the revamping & removing of previous posts, but I had my reasons for removing quite a large chunk of my blog lately. I suppose this should really be called Kristinesays 3.0 haha. In all honesty, this feels like a slate being wiped clean & I don’t quite care at this moment if I’ve got a following on this blog or not. This is my tiny space in the big world wide web & I’m going to claim this space as my own & write as I feel like. Sure, some things will still remain private for my eyes only as I’ve struggled to draw appropriate boundaries on what it is I write or how much of myself I expose online. As I’m studying to become a librarian and information professional, it is really important to me that I have limits to what I put down. All the views published on my blog are my own and do not reflect my employer(s), past, present or future. For now, this will be a place where I document my life as it goes along.

 

I’ve had a bit of a brain wave & figured that since I like to write lists all the time & cannot live without lists, what better way for my blog to be! A giant collection of lists. It’s a bit weird, but for me it works wonders that my brain is able to process what I’ve got planned for each day & what I have achieved by the end of the day. It took me nearly 3 years at work to discover that I work well with lists, go figure.

 

For the first official list this time, I figured that since I’m hungry, what better list than the foods I can’t live without. Even though I come from an Asian background, I love me my Western food. I grew up with Asian-fied versions of dishes like spaghetti bolognese (it had bits of carrot & beef mince in it) or pork chops (made with tomato, onion & corn flour to thicken the sauce – was actually pretty good). If there was a Western dish that we watched on TV, it was almost guaranteed that dad made an Asian version of it. As a result, I’ve made up my own spaghetti bolognese recipe (I’ll post it here one day) & altered it to suit my taste buds. Pasta is something that I absolutely love & can eat day in & day out.

 

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Another food that I couldn’t quite live without is rice. I live up to my Asian roots. I could happily eat fried rice, rice with soup, rice porridge, rice with other dishes, anything with rice pretty much. Such a cliche I am! It’s something satisfying about eating rice that just makes me keep coming back!

 

To be honest, there really isn’t much else that I couldn’t live without. I say this now, but I’m sure something else might crop up later on :P

 

What foods could you not live without?

Resolutions 2014

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I read somewhere on the good old Internet about how a girl posted up a picture & a thing that she was grateful for, for 365 days. Not sure which article it was or where it was published, but it got me to thinking and evaluating things that have been happening in the past year or so for me. I know I made some New Year’s Resolutions last year, some of which I’ve achieved and others not so much.

 

Now is a good time as any to make some resolutions or goals for 2014. I’ve never been a huge resolution fan, I’d rather look at them as some goals to achieve and guide me for the year. I hope to review them in detail at the end of the year to see what I’ve achieved & look back at what life was in the year 2014.

 

First thing that I would like to achieve is to write more often here & document things that are happening in life so that I have some sort of memory of what went on. I know with life, study & all sorts of things, blogging daily won’t be something that can be achieved, but I would like to increase my writing frequency to document the big events in life.

 

Second thing that I would like to implement with this blog is to be thankful for at least 1 thing each day, although I might not post daily. With the things that go on in day to day life, it is sometimes easy to forget to be thankful for the little things in life. And it’s the little things in life that make life so colourful & interesting.

 

Thirdly, I would like to take more pictures each day. I have put this down last year too, but think this is probably an ongoing thing as I would like to improve my photography skills. Sometimes I think I’m just too lazy to whip out my camera or phone & I miss things, which is something that I don’t want to happen anymore. Learning to be more spontaneous with things & life will definitely help with this.

 

Lastly but not by any means the least, I would like to look at delving deeper into my hobbies, more so cooking and baking, and to see if there are any business opportunities in Melbourne to do with these. This one is pretty close to my heart as I’ve been wanting to embark on a business to do with either cooking or baking and would like to see some stuff happening in terms of that. I’ve put some ideas on hold due to personal reasons and the Melbourne move, but am now putting it out there so that I can hold myself accountable to it all.

 

On a side note, a few other things that I would like to achieve in the short term is to secure a job prior to the Melbourne move, complete my 3 week prac (starts next week, eek!!), finish my Graduate Diploma in Information & Library Studies, as well as settle well into Melbourne. I work best by setting small goals each day & working through that. It has taken me nearly 28 years to figure out how to understand my body is telling me, but I am taking it day by day & learning to love myself & life a bit more each day :)

 

Project Vegetarianism Day 4, 5 & 6

I must say, this has been a bit of a slight fail. I was going really well on day 5 of the challenge until I accidentally ate a piece of salami yesterday. It actually took me about an hour to realise what I had done.

 

I  had a 4pm appointment with a client of mine who always forgets, and I expected him to forget to turn up again. So, I agreed to come around to drinks after work which started at 4pm. Next thing I know, I got a phone call from reception saying that my client has actually turned up. So I went to tell the person who was organising the food about it, and let them know I’ll be at drinks about 5pm after my appointment. She was dishing up some salami and crackers. I was hungry and grabbed the salami while talking to her and ate the bloody thing. I hadn’t even realised till after when I stared at the cheese plate after my appointment and was contemplating what to eat. Lo and behold, I had consumed meat. Bah.

 

So, as part of the challenge I now have to start blogging for 7 days straight or else Matt will hijack my Twitter account for 7 days. I initially was planning to stick out the rest of my challenge till Sunday, but writing this post has made me really crave some form of meat again. Call me cruel or ignorant, but I will still continue eating meat like I did before. I guess the thing I will be changing is to actually add more veggies to my diet and possibly go vegetarian once a week just in support of Matt. I think my digestive system will revolt at meat being introduced to it once again after 5 days, but I think that’s a price I’m willing to pay.

 

So, what other challenges would you like to see me or Matt do? Leave a comment!

Project Vegetarianism: Day 1, 2 & 3

Since Matt became a vegetarian this year, I’ve decided to go on a 7 day challenge just to see what its like. I did try it for a week a few years ago, but failed at day 6 when I ate a bit of sashimi for dinner. Thought I’d give it a go again this time round just to see what its like again. Mind you, I’m the sort of person who craves meat & has actually eaten a whole roast chicken on its own in one sitting just cause I was hungry. I’m not sure how I’ll fare but its worth a try. This time there’s a bet going on with whether I can do this or not. If I manage to go 7 days (12am Monday – 12am Monday) without meat, I get to pick a place & Matt will have to take me there. And if I fail this, I was given the choice of having to blog every day for a week or no Xbox for a month. Needless to say that I’m going with blogging every day :P And should I fail that too, I have to give up my Twitter account to Matt for a week & he gets to hijack. Needless to say, its a pretty big incentive for me to ace this challenge :)

 

Day 1 was pretty easy to see the least, I had slept in and was only starting work at 11.45am yesterday so I had some instant noodles with egg in there for brunch. Didn’t feel too bad as I’m used to eating that for meals or snacks. Later that night, Matt & I traipsed to the local curry place. Usually I have either the curry chicken or butter chicken with rice. But seeeing as I had just started the 7 day challenge, I had garlic naan with some lentil curry. I must admit, I am a bit of a fan of that curry. I first ate something like that when we were in Melbourne in November so I was quite used to it. Though, the next day my digestive system rioted as the curry had butter & cream in it. I’ve recently developed a intolerance to lactose, though I can take small amounts of it at, so it isn’t that big a deal.

 

Day 2 was slightly harder as I had to carefully ponder my options of food for the day. I had cous cous for lunch and dinner was at the local Japanese place where I had edamame beans, agedashi tofu & seaweed udon. I was full from the food, but there was a certain satisfaction to it that was missing.

 

Day 3. Now this has got to be a bit of an epic day. I bought one of those San Remo pasta snack for 1 things (Mac & Cheese is still vegetarian, I checked) and decided to have that for breakfast at work. I didn’t exactly follow instructions as I was at work & really couldn’t be bothered measuring out liquid. Bad bad idea. I managed to burn that in the microwave. Heh. Last time I’ll do that again. I ended up having brunch while at a team meeting – scrambled eggs on toast with some baked beans. Yummy & filling but naturally my stomach is rioting again. I forgot scrambled eggs have dairy in them *facepalm* I’m actually beginning to question how lactose intolerant I am. If I can’t have dairy, my options are pretty limited for food & will have to become part vegan for the next few days till this challenge finishes!

 

All in all, I must say not eating meat isn’t as bad as it sounds. I’ve almost reached the halfway point and I must say that I can live with being vegetarian a few days a week. It’s the thought of never having meat again that scares me. My body craves meat every so often & I can’t say no to it. Guess its all about balance, hey? :)

New Years Resolutions 2013

Happy New Year!! I guess this post is a little late, but as the saying goes, better late than never rings pretty true here.

 

I must admit, I did abandon this blog for a little bit and have been missing it. But hauling out my ancient laptop & waiting for it to boot up is a little painful. Nevertheless, I’m back here & documenting my New Years Resolution so that I can actually look back at it, rather than try to revive it from my memory at the end of the year.

 

Looking back on 2012, I feel that I’ve learnt many lessons and I have many more to learn. The past is a great learning tool if anything :)

 

  • Turn off my work phone when not at work

One of the big issues for me with work is I tend not to switch off from work mode. I tend to leave my work phone on & actually answer it on weekends or at night time even if its just a text message or an e-mail that could’ve waited for when I’m back at work. I must remember that I cannot always run at everyone’s beck & call and not look after myself. Turning off my phone each night & on the weekends will be a good start to this.

 

  • Save more money

I must admit, I am a pretty good saver (if I do say so myself!) as it is. Looking back on last year, I managed to buy a house & keep up with my mortgage. Plus overpay it a little, which is a pretty good as achievement in my books. Though I hate to admit this, I could’ve probably saved a bit more. I’ve written out a rough budget for this year to really work in saving every penny. If you know me in real life, I am a bit of a tight arse sometimes but I guess it pays off every now and again :) But in all honesty, I’m working to save extra hard this year as I’m moving to Melbourne with my boyfriend in about 12 months time. Yes, you heard right, I am leaving Perth. That’s another blog post in itself :)

 

  • Pay off mortgage sooner

Pretty much based on the last point, I do also intend to overpay my mortgage so that I can pay it off sooner. I’m the kind of person who absolutely hates to have any debt & with a mortgage (the biggest type of debt one can possibly have) to pay off, I’m counting every last penny to put away for this. Now if only my bank came out with an app or something that tells me how much left I’ve got on my mortgage, I’d love them forever. I’m a big fan of countdown type apps or things left, gives me a goal to work towards :)

 

  • Blog more and take more photos

This is probably the hardest of my resolutions so far. Its been rather easy dealing with Twitter & Instagram on a daily basis than lugging out a laptop to blog. I guess I don’t have much of an excuse as I have a Samsung Note 2 which has the WP app. I guess this for me is more to express stuff in more detail & in more than 140 characters plus build on my creativity. I have been feeling rather meh lately & not having a creative outlet has also been pretty draining. Sometimes it is rather nice to just type away on the computer and just blab out to the internet. I guess I also have been holding back on blogging as I am quite a private person and having my feelings typed out on the interwebs scares me that people might think I’m crazy or are quick to judge what I’m doing against their own sense or morality or right and wrong. I have issues with that. Anyway, I’ve made up my mind that there will be some private posts on there, plus password protected ones so please don’t be offended if I don’t offer you the password to read them as it gives me that peace of mind to be able to have a voice sometimes.

 

  • Be more social

I am a very homebody kind of person, I’d much rather be sitting at home and cleaning or just watching tv than go out & party every weekend. 2011 was my party year (or year of rebellion as I like to call it) and I can honestly say, I’ve tried the going out clubbing & drinking thing and I don’t like it. I do enjoy a drink every now & again, but I must admit that being hungover for a good part of 2011 was not one of the best things I’ve done in my life. Hey, it had to happen right? I was never a rebellious teenager & have led a mostly sheltered life. I thought that at 25, it was good to say I had my year of partying like a teenager. Maybe I’ve just got arrested development LOL. In all honesty, I’ve had ups & downs last year and I have lost touch with a few friends here and there. I am wanting to make an effort in reconnecting with some friends and maintaining a small bunch of close friends rather than a large bunch of acquaintances. Its those people that you know are your true friends.

 

Its not a very long list of resolutions, but I’ve always been a believer of starting with small goals or baby steps and then building your way up before trying to tackle life’s rocks. If I can achieve even a small part of these resolutions, I think that’s a step in the right direction. I look at it as, I’ve improved on things from the day before. Even a small improvement is an improvement.

 

So, what are your resolutions for 2013? Leave me a comment below :)

Career Choices

I recall very clearly that while growing up, I wanted to be a number of things when I got older. They ranged from being a fashion designer, to a lawyer, a doctor & my favourite one so far: an air stewardess. The last one probably stemmed from the fact that Dad worked in the airline & we were lucky enough to get cheap tickets to travel places. I remember that I looked forward to going on a plane each trip, as I loved the whole experience. From the checking in at the counter, right down to the crappy plane food. Yes, I was a strange child…

And to think I like eating airplane food…

I vaguely remember that the air stewardess thing lasted till I was about 12 or 13. Around about the time I realised I probably had a bit more growing to do before I could qualify. By the time I got to around 16, I stopped growing & I am now at my full grown height of… 156cm. 2cm too short to make it to become a stewardess. Oh well, there goes the dream of serving crappy plane food to people…

Around about my teenage years, I also was fascinated with writing & becoming an author of sorts. I wrote a few articles & short stories. I also was quite fascinated with cooking & baking at that point. I quite clearly remember an assignment that I had to do for school to do with career paths & voices. We had to come up with a career goals we were interested in & come up with ideas or ways that we were to achieve that. I remember that I wrote that I wanted to become a chef & how I’d do that was to read up on books & learn from others around me. Oh how naive I was back then. My teacher wrote a note on my paper asking me to think about vocational qualifications I could obtain to follow that path. I remember thinking to myself, “oh whoops, I definitely need to do more research into this”. FYI, those were the days where I didn’t have Internet at home & I was relying on what I knew about things from people around me. It was Malaysia, need I say more?

 

Chef Kristine

 

Then I somehow grew up slightly and decided that I wanted to become a marine biologist when I was 17. I think it was cause my Dad’s cousin’s husband is a marine biologist & the whole family lived in exotic places. I might have also watched one too many dolphin or whale related movies…. Either way, it was either that or be an author. I had absolutely no idea what I was going to write about but I love writing, I figured that it’ll work out one day.

 

Then I moved to Australia to study when I was 18. I had no idea what I was going to do at university but I had one year to think about it as I was doing a foundation year in Perth. The year went by pretty quickly and I still didn’t have a clear idea of what I wanted to do, though I was still pretty gung ho about marine biology. My Aunty then dashed my hopes and told me people who were marine biologists would have to have had interest in it since they were young or have done some work in it before. Needless to say, I had no experience in it and my plans to become a marine biologist were shelved. That really didn’t solve the problem picking a course to study at uni the following year. The list of courses were endless, I felt like just randomly sticking my finger onto the brochures and whatever it landed on, I’d study it. Now, thankfully I didn’t do that. I was going to apply for journalism as I did have an interest in that, but in the end, I applied for 2 unis, picked biomedical science at one and food science & nutrition at the other. I got accepted to both but I still didn’t know what I wanted to do. So my Aunty put me in touch with her friend’s daughter who is an Occupational Therapist and she spoke to me about what OT was and I made the decision to reapply for OT and managed to get in through a very weird way that I’ll save you the boredom from reading.

 

Fast forward 4 years, I graduated and got my current job which I’ve been at for 4 years. All in all, I guess what must be said is that the career I am now isn’t one that I would have imagined I would end up with. I can say for sure that I am passionate about the disability sector and helping people in whatever capacity I have. The industry I’m in is well known for not paying well, but at the end of the day I can say that the work I did that day, made a difference in someone’s life.

Supermarket Finds – De Gas, Halo 4 V Energy Drink & Dummy Video Camera

As part of my job I visit people in all sorts of work places, which includes supermarkets. Oh boy do they stock the strangest things on their shelves sometimes! I’ve decided they deserve a category of their own on my blog, hence Supermarket Finds.

On my trip to Woolies yesterday, these are the items I found.

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Probably the most amusing one so far, De Gas. Though I’m not sure if you’d take it just before getting gas or at the beginning of the day as a preventative measure. Either way, I hope it works!

 

 

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For all the Halo 4 fans out there, you can now stay awake with V while playing Halo! Clever marketing scheme on their part

 

 

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Now this is an interesting one. My parents actually obtained a dummy alarm box to put outside their place in Malaysia. I suppose it might be handy in Malaysia?

 

 

Well there you have it for this installment of Supermarket Finds. I’m sure this will continue to expand as I keep visiting supermarkets, no doubt I’m tickled pink each time I go there. Happy weekend!

Creativity Stifled

Looks like this blog has taken a back seat to life once again. Truth be told, things are pretty busy at work and I’ve been working weekends plus spending most spare moments with Matt when I can. It doesn’t help at all when I work about 38 – 40 hours per week of work, not taking into account the time it takes to commute to work (about 2 hours daily). Those 2 hours are not much but it’s nice to be in the car driving & talking to your boyfriend with nobody around :)

 

Last long weekend I ended up working 6 days but thankfully had a weekend due to the public holiday on Monday. Am so thankful I have a 4 day week this week with a 2 day weekend, but with moving into a new house, I’ve got heaps to sort out and unpack. Last few times I moved house, I didn’t unpack for 4 years! Yes, I have to do it a bit at a time this round to avoid that from happening again. An hour each day of cleaning house and unpacking does take its toll on free time! Now, if only I had a genie and it gave me a wish. I’d wish for there to be more than 24 hours in a day!

 

I guess the long and short of all this is I’m feeling a bit stilfed creatively. I’m not the most creative person on the street, but I do lash out every now and again. I haven’t written a fully comprehensive blog post or article in years and its been eating at me lately. Matt restarted his blog, which gave me the motivation to redo my blog but now have seemed to not be able to write a post the way I want it to read. It’s as if I’ve got the words all in a muddle in my head but can’t put them to pen and paper (or computer) in a way that would read well. And that frustrates me.

 

They say that the brain is neuroplastic and that with work and practice, things do come back and skills can be regained. I’m hoping that this will be a good opportunity for me to practive my writing skills once again and have a creative outlet once again. Here’s to a good, stable and regular creative outlet!

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